Wow, i never knew being sick would be so stressful

Sorry, this is a bit of a personal problem thing, hahaha;;; Sorry if you get annoyed at people talking about stuff like this, i just really need to vent a little bit.... ps. i swear like a sailor. lol.

So I've had a bit of a problem with walking for the past month or two, where if I walk a normal speed, my chest starts hurting, and if I kept pushing, my vision would start blacking out and i'd hear stuff as if I was listening to a badly tuned radio.... so obviously something was wrong, and I went to the doctors to check stuff out. funny thing is at first I thought I had asthma, because I'd also feel like I couldn't breath properly and had a wet cough.

Well, I got my echocardiogram results back and found out I have severe Mitral Stenosis, which is basically a heart valve disorder in which my heart valve cannot open completely (mine’s opening at 1/4 the normal size), caused probably by a fever I had when I was 5 or 6 y/o, in which my heart valve got infected. …..-____-;;. so now one of my heart chambers is swelling up because not enough blood can be pumped out, which if severe enough can cause blood clots and give me a stroke, so i might need heart surgery to get it fixed, but I won’t know for sure until i go see a cardiologist, which is next week.

So now my parents are pressuring me to quit my awesome amazing not-really-stressful background painting job with good pay, to go home and rest, and it's seriously stressing me out. I know they mean well but every time I tell them i'm painting or something they're like "you shouldn't be. you should just rest", as if painting is going to cause me to have a stroke or something....and they keep calling me, and i can't just hang up. I mean, now i even have to cut off coffee, which is kind of this thing i really need. ;__;
...."orz

ARGUHHHH i DON'T NEED THIS on top of all of this shit. Fuck, i probably sound like an ungrateful bitch but oh my fucking god I love my job i don't want to quit, especially since I haven't checked with my cardiologist yet and nothing's set in stone like holy fuck.

fuckfuck i'm so fucking stressed....

Don't wanna end on a bad note so here's something I'm painting...bit by bit when i'm out of work at work xD;. photoshop is still a sonofabitch to work with lololol.